... for the blog, as well as me.
That old design that looked "sleek and black" was actually more "depressing".
So, it's Christmas. The ground is white, and there is a hint of red and green all over the place.
It's brighter, at least. One of these days I will have a template with graphics, something "soothing" or "invigorating" or "snappy".
Right now, it's text only for a clear mind.
Take care, all. I'll be back around later.
25 December 2004
24 December 2004
21:24
Apparently I'm going to post every hour or so. I still have a good bit of battery, so it's all good.
Into The Woods is my current distraction. Thank God for iTunes.
Spent the last 30 minutes or so exploring the programs on this little machine.
- no cards, but chess (and I am too afraid of losing to play long enough to make a mistake)
- 1st person shooter that blasts your ears out when you start it up
- so does World Book Encyclopedia
- ... but it does have a kinda-cool Atlas
- TextEditor is not Simple Text, but PseudoWord
Confined spaces + headache = crabby Jo
If I treat this like one of the all-nighters I used to pull [link to Blogathon archives] then maybe I'll make it.
Not like I have much of a choice.
Still, if I could lie in bed reading instead of sitting bolt upright in a narrow chair, it might not be so bad.
3 hours-ish to arrival, I think. 3.5. Whatever.
I might have to start a movie after Into The Woods is over.
It feels wierd to still have daylight when my computer says it's 21:32.
Back to reading, or knitting maybe.
The hat is going well. It's actually starting to look like a hat (pic here, girl!)
Into The Woods is my current distraction. Thank God for iTunes.
Spent the last 30 minutes or so exploring the programs on this little machine.
- no cards, but chess (and I am too afraid of losing to play long enough to make a mistake)
- 1st person shooter that blasts your ears out when you start it up
- so does World Book Encyclopedia
- ... but it does have a kinda-cool Atlas
- TextEditor is not Simple Text, but PseudoWord
Confined spaces + headache = crabby Jo
If I treat this like one of the all-nighters I used to pull [link to Blogathon archives] then maybe I'll make it.
Not like I have much of a choice.
Still, if I could lie in bed reading instead of sitting bolt upright in a narrow chair, it might not be so bad.
3 hours-ish to arrival, I think. 3.5. Whatever.
I might have to start a movie after Into The Woods is over.
It feels wierd to still have daylight when my computer says it's 21:32.
Back to reading, or knitting maybe.
The hat is going well. It's actually starting to look like a hat (pic here, girl!)
underway
I couldn't stand not posting to Ye Olde Weblog, not with a 10-hour flight from Amsterdam to Memphis that I have to survive.
Of course, Internet isn't at 34000 feet. Not for me. I'm not that cool.
4:38 to arrival.
We've been flying for almost 6 hours.
The little girl across the aisle has been most diverting (I hope to have a picture to post, if I can get away with taking one) but man, I'm starting to have as much trouble sitting still as she is.
I keep thinking of my children, the ones I want to eventually have.
That invariably brings me to the two children I'm leaving behind. They're not mine, but they could have been.
It has occurred to me that I have been in love with a man for his children. A hard thought.
My body tells me it is 8:30 p.m., after 12 hours of travel.
This is a long flight. God save me from my own thoughts.*
*He just did ... with Dvorak &, Mvt. 3. Nothing could have been better.
Of course, Internet isn't at 34000 feet. Not for me. I'm not that cool.
4:38 to arrival.
We've been flying for almost 6 hours.
The little girl across the aisle has been most diverting (I hope to have a picture to post, if I can get away with taking one) but man, I'm starting to have as much trouble sitting still as she is.
I keep thinking of my children, the ones I want to eventually have.
That invariably brings me to the two children I'm leaving behind. They're not mine, but they could have been.
It has occurred to me that I have been in love with a man for his children. A hard thought.
My body tells me it is 8:30 p.m., after 12 hours of travel.
This is a long flight. God save me from my own thoughts.*
*He just did ... with Dvorak &, Mvt. 3. Nothing could have been better.
* * * Merry Christmas! * * *
I fly home in T minus five hours and counting.
In less than two I hope to be on the train to the airport. And yes, I've brought knitting and a book to keep me busy while I wait in the terminal.
Quick flight to Amsterdam, then the longer one direct to Memphis and home. My mom is picking me up (yay!) and they're having a White Christmas at the moment, even in Arkansas (double yay!)
The break is a short one - I am going to try to enjoy each moment as much as I can.
I also have some business to take care of, but that will wait until at least the 27th. I have 3 days to relax completely, if I can call flying overseas relaxing.
I'm going to do my best to make it so.
See you folks tomorrow!
In less than two I hope to be on the train to the airport. And yes, I've brought knitting and a book to keep me busy while I wait in the terminal.
Quick flight to Amsterdam, then the longer one direct to Memphis and home. My mom is picking me up (yay!) and they're having a White Christmas at the moment, even in Arkansas (double yay!)
The break is a short one - I am going to try to enjoy each moment as much as I can.
I also have some business to take care of, but that will wait until at least the 27th. I have 3 days to relax completely, if I can call flying overseas relaxing.
I'm going to do my best to make it so.
See you folks tomorrow!
17 December 2004
things are shaping up
It looks like all of the Christmas plans are working out according to, well... Plan. So much has been up in the air (when Becca can come, when I will be able to pick up my stuff from Scott's, where I'm going to put it all, who's going to keep my cat while I'm gone) that it has been downright maddening, especially when I have been trying to prepare for every eventuality. There were (and are still) too many eventualities to prepare for!
Not much is certain, even now: All I know for sure is that I'm leaving the 24th, Becca is getting in the 25th, and we're doing Big Family Christmas stuff on the 25th and 26th. Also, Becca wants me to come to Lawrence (which I had planned to do at New Year's, barring any conflict she might have with the timing).
Scheduling of all the big stuff is yet to be determined, or is at least waiting on someone else (i.e., Kit will keep Annie-cat for me, but she still needs permission from the landlord to do it.)
In the short term, tonight's dinner arrangements are a meet-the-guest-from-Canada affair at an Italian restaurant in Stadtmitte. I'm actually getting dressed up for this. Lyndsey picked the restaurant (a Canadian decides! Write it down!) and I've never been there, so it will be a bit of an adventure (but hopefully the pleasant kind!)
Took a test in Middle High German today (translate a small text, identify the distinguishing characteristics of MHG) - not too terrible. I just thought of something I could have written, but isn't that always the case. It still went well - and it was not for a grade, anyway. Just to see where we are (i.e., what we need to study).
This weekend promises to be relaxing, if only I can relax. I'm excited about getting to go home, and eager to pick up my stuff from Scott's- my body is tensed, springlike, ready to get it over with. Relaxing just now is a bit of a challenge.
I am so grateful to be going home for a little while, with the possibility of bringing a stressful situation to a close.
Not much is certain, even now: All I know for sure is that I'm leaving the 24th, Becca is getting in the 25th, and we're doing Big Family Christmas stuff on the 25th and 26th. Also, Becca wants me to come to Lawrence (which I had planned to do at New Year's, barring any conflict she might have with the timing).
Scheduling of all the big stuff is yet to be determined, or is at least waiting on someone else (i.e., Kit will keep Annie-cat for me, but she still needs permission from the landlord to do it.)
In the short term, tonight's dinner arrangements are a meet-the-guest-from-Canada affair at an Italian restaurant in Stadtmitte. I'm actually getting dressed up for this. Lyndsey picked the restaurant (a Canadian decides! Write it down!) and I've never been there, so it will be a bit of an adventure (but hopefully the pleasant kind!)
Took a test in Middle High German today (translate a small text, identify the distinguishing characteristics of MHG) - not too terrible. I just thought of something I could have written, but isn't that always the case. It still went well - and it was not for a grade, anyway. Just to see where we are (i.e., what we need to study).
This weekend promises to be relaxing, if only I can relax. I'm excited about getting to go home, and eager to pick up my stuff from Scott's- my body is tensed, springlike, ready to get it over with. Relaxing just now is a bit of a challenge.
I am so grateful to be going home for a little while, with the possibility of bringing a stressful situation to a close.
13 December 2004
hiatus continues
It's been a while since I even thought to post here, and it will be a bit longer before I need to blog much or often... probably after the new year. I fly home in 11 days and I won't be back until January 7th. Unfortunately, the Christmas break in Germany is mid-semester, so there will only be a weekend between my arrival and my next class.
Of course, Becca is still coming to see me in February, so that's all good.
My greatest distraction is leaving Germany for good on December 23rd, the day before I leave. He is, God bless him, planning to move to Lawrence to give "us" a chance. He's being medically retired from the Army, so he's got to start over somewhere. Apparently I provided the Where.
I'm a little nervous about coming back here and staying the rest of the year, since when I came here, the relationship I left behind crumbled to dust. But then, I wasn't worried that anything would happen with the last one... I'm hoping that my low-grade concern means that I value this one more than the last.
He is certainly better for me emotionally.
I feel like I am more myself when I am with him, instead of creating someone to be that will please him (which is what I did when I started dating.)
Maybe I will post again before 2005 from Mom & Dad's after Christmas, but I never know. I still have to pick up my stuff from my ex-fiance's house. That may take all my energy and time until my current (and hopefully last) boyfriend comes to meet the parents.
Of course, Becca is still coming to see me in February, so that's all good.
My greatest distraction is leaving Germany for good on December 23rd, the day before I leave. He is, God bless him, planning to move to Lawrence to give "us" a chance. He's being medically retired from the Army, so he's got to start over somewhere. Apparently I provided the Where.
I'm a little nervous about coming back here and staying the rest of the year, since when I came here, the relationship I left behind crumbled to dust. But then, I wasn't worried that anything would happen with the last one... I'm hoping that my low-grade concern means that I value this one more than the last.
He is certainly better for me emotionally.
I feel like I am more myself when I am with him, instead of creating someone to be that will please him (which is what I did when I started dating.)
Maybe I will post again before 2005 from Mom & Dad's after Christmas, but I never know. I still have to pick up my stuff from my ex-fiance's house. That may take all my energy and time until my current (and hopefully last) boyfriend comes to meet the parents.
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